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It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there
Always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same
Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside
Early on, you face
The realization you don't
Have a space
Where you fit in
And recognize
You were born to exist
Standin' alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside
And it's hard
And it's hard
And it's hard
Irreversibility
Falling in between
And it's hard
And it's hard
To be understood
As you are
As you are
Oh, and God knows
That you're standing on your own-
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try-try and try
To tell yourself
You really are
But in your heart- uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the outside
You'll always be
Somewhere on the outside
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[Verse 1]
Pick it up, pick it all up
And start again
You've got a second chance, you could go home
Escape it all, it's just irrelevant
[Chorus]
It's just medicine
It's just medicine
[Verse 2]
You could still be what you want to
What you said you were when I met you
You've got a warm heart, you've got a beautiful brain
But it's disintegrating from all the medicine.
[Chorus]
From all the medicine
From all the medicine
Medicine
[Verse 3]
You could still be what you want to be
What you said you were when you met me
You could still be what you want to
What you said you were when I met you
When you met me, when I met you
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I Wish You Well
04:38
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It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there
Always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same
Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside
Early on, you face
The realization you don't
Have a space
Where you fit in
And recognize you
Were born to exist
Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside
And it's hard
And it's hard
And it's hard
Irreversibly
Falling in between
And it's hard
And it's hard
To be understood
As you are
As you are
Oh, and God knows
That you're standing on your own
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try, try and try
To tell yourself
You really are
But in your heart uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the outside
You'll always be
Somewhere on the outside
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[Verse 1]
I was a wayward child
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn't know
[Chorus]
But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time's rolled by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon
(Hook)
[Verse 2]
Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away (And block it away)
I left the worse unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget
[Chorus]
As I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time's rolled by
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon
[Bridge]
Nearing the edge (Nearing the edge)
Oblivious I almost (Oblivious)
Fell right over (I almost just)
A part of me (A part of me)
Will never be quite able (Will never be)
To feel stable (Able to feel)
That woman-child (That woman-child)
Feeling inside (Feeling inside)
Was on the verge of fading (Practically died)
Thankfully I (Thankfully I)
Woke up in time (Woke up in time, time, time)
(I)
[Verse 3]
Guardian angel, I
Sail away on an ocean
With you by my side
Orange clouds roll by
They burn into your image (Into your image)
And you're still alive (You're still alive)
[Chorus]
As I closed my eyes (You're always alive)
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky (Head to the sky)
And though time's rolled by (Time)
Still I feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon
(Hook/Outro)
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You leave in the morning with everything you own in a little black case
Alone on a platform, the wind and the rain on a sad and lonely face
Father will never understand why you had to leave
But the answers you seek will never be found at home
The love that you need will never be found at home
Pushed around and kicked around, always a lonely boy
You were the one that they'd talk about around town as they put you down
And as hard as they would try they'd hurt to make you cry
But you never cried to them, just to your soul
No, you never cried to them, just to your soul
Crying to your soul
Crying to your soul
Run away, turn away
Cry to your soul
Cry to your soul
Cry, you hear
To your soul
To your soul
Cry
Cry
Cry
You leave in the morning with everything you own in a little black case
Alone on a platform, the wind and the rain on a sad and lonely face
Father will never understand why you had to leave
The answers you seek will never be found at home
The love that you need will never be found at home
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away
Pushed around and kicked around, always a lonely boy
You were the one that they'd talk about around town as they put you down
And as hard as they would try to hurt to make you cry
But you never cried to them, just to your soul
No, you never cried to them, just to your soul
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away (crying to your soul)
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away (crying to your soul)
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away (crying to your soul)
Run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away (cry)
Cry, boy, cry
Cry, boy, cry
Cry, boy, cry, boy, cry
Cry, boy, cry, boy, cry (Why did you leave me this way?)
Cry, boy, cry, boy, cry (Why did you leave me this way?)
Cry, boy, cry, boy, cry (You know it's still not too late?)
Cry, boy, cry, boy, cry
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God I feel like hell tonight
The tears of rage I cannot lie
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man
My man
Nothing's true, and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
'Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man
Lie to me, I promise I'll believe
Lie to me, but please don't leave
I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
Just try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man
My man
Are you strong enough (to be my man)
Are you strong enough (to be my man)
Are you strong enough
My man
When I've shown you
That I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Would you be man enough to be my man
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I've often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness and sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flaying in the wind
Like golden petals scattering
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion
And even love you
I gravitated towards a patriarch so young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life within a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity
And I miss you little sis
And Little brother
And I hope you realize
I'll always love you
(Always love you)
And although you're struggling
You will recover (we're gonna make it maybe)
And I miss you little sis and little brother
So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep
(Sleep) (Sleep) (Sleep)
And I missed a lot of life
But I'll recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you
I really loved you
(I guess I loved you)
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
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Soulbaby
04:59
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First Verse
Never could I be more
Surprised to
Find myself held captive in your
Arms
See, I’ve been down this dangerous road
Before but
I’m convinced my trust has been
Restored ‘cause for the
Chorus
First time I feel
Adorn, you
Touch me like I’ve never been touched
Before, I think I’m falling for you
Kiss my soul, tell it you
Care
Hold it tight and never let it
Go – let’s make a
Soulbaby, a
Soulbaby, a
Soul, Soulbaby
Second Verse
Never could I be more
Alarmed to
Have my tears dried and wiped away from my
Eyes
It almost seems like
You’ve been down that road as well my dear ‘cause your
Love helps me forget like it’s nurturing from
Experience, like it’s the…
Second Chorus
First time you feel
Adorn – baby you
Touch me like you’ve been betrayed
Before – I’ll
Kiss your soul – tell it I
Care, baby I’ll
Hold it tight and I’ll never ever, ever, ever, ever let it
Go – I’ll never ever let it
Go, baby
Soliloquy:
All great things must first wear terrifying and monstrous masks
in order to inscribe themselves onto the hearts of humanity.
How can you appreciate a wonderful thing without being pummeled first?
But when that beautiful, 6’2, caring, sensitive brother that
knows a woman’s pain comes along, you must:
Hold him real tight, girl just hold him real tight
Hold him real close like you hold to dear life
Hold him real tight, girl just hold him real tight
Never ever, ever, ever, ever, ever let that nigga go
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Marian Renta New York, New York
Marian Renta is an American singer-songwriter, record producer, and musician. Born in New York, she grew up in Virginia where she was formally and classically trained as a pianist and composer. Regarded for her prolific songwriting and unique vocal tone, she often conveys emotional and melancholic themes in her songs and often incorporates a blend of Indie pop, Soul, and Electronica in her music. ... more
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